I needed to reshape my life. I developed bad habits from 18 months of working in an environment I didn’t like, in a state, I didn’t like and for bosses, I didn’t respect.
My personal life started to become attuned to escaping to a nice comfortable place. I started to become more and more like an average, fat, lazy person that idolizes TV stars and craves more distractions that take them away from their own mediocre existence.
I was weak and I no longer respected myself. Since my view of myself is closely tied to my successes and my performance, this became a real problem, real quick.